Today at work while entering into a conversation with someone, I realized I was actually giving myself a pep talk that went a little something like this:
"Oh, she's coming over. I guess I need to talk to this person now. Okay, just act normal. Everything is normal. Oh - she's talking. Pay attention. Nod. Yes, that's good. You look toooootally normal."Who does that?!! I certainly never have before. I am usually very personable and outgoing and have never been one to analyze my every word and action! I am normally quick-witted with snappy comebacks and lately I can barely even seem to hold a conversation with anyone other than my husband. This all feels very weird to me and I don't like it.
I did google depression a little tonight (will do more tomorrow) and I think I am going to start forcing myself to exercise more even though I REALLY don't feel like it. Hopefully that will help. Other suggestions I read: Vitamin B-6, calcium, magnesium, Vitamin E, tryptophan, evening primrose oil and chaste tree berry. We'll see what else I find.
I obviously need to do a ton more research but even just realizing that this might be what's going on is a bit of a relief. I am aware that depression can be linked to PCOS so maybe this is valid and I should talk to my doctor. I would not be surprised if Metformin is in my near future because of the PCOS - I wonder if that would also help with depression?
For your viewing pleasure, here are some apropos drawings by Hyperbole and a Half (love!):