Friday, August 30, 2013

Yoo hoo, CD1...?

Where the hell are you?!  It's 15DPO (CD42) and I just want this cycle to end.  My temp is dropping, my back is killing me and I have bad cramps. I think this period's gonna be a doozy but I would like to just get to it already so that I can move on to the next cycle.  I was all excited that I was FINALLY in a 2WW, but once in it, I realized just how long a 15+ day LP truly is when you already know you're not pregnant.

Regarding my last post: I made an appointment to talk with a therapist.  It's not until next Friday unfortunately but at least it's scheduled. Hubs was gone most of this week for work (coming home tonight) and I'm happy to say that the week was okay for me. Honestly, that's probably just because I distracted myself though. I stayed away from TB and barely thought about anything related to TTC (besides taking my temp and an HPT first thing each morning). Instead, I worked a lot, finally finished my scrapbook that I've been putting off for years, and watched season 1 of Game of Thrones. Yes, the entire season.  (It is awesome.)  

I did start thinking about IF-related stuff this morning and, of course, got all weepy and emotional again.  Maybe the key to my sanity is just sheer avoidance. That's probably not too healthy (or sustainable) though so hopefully talking with the therapist will help.

I just want to say a sincere thank you to every one of you who has taken the time to comment on my blog. You wonderful ladies really help me - more than you know. It makes me feel like I'm not alone and not crazy even when I'm at my worst.  Big thanks and hugs especially to JayTee & CC for checking in with me on FB too.  I am so grateful I have you guys in my life (even if it's only virtually!). The support is so appreciated. <3


  1. I'm glad that your week turned out okay, but I'm sorry about the impending CD1. I hope that talking to the therapist is really helpful for you <3

  2. Love you, girl! I am thinking of seeing a therapist too... This journey is too much for anyone to bear without support. I'm so glad that you are getting the help you need. I'm sure it would be good for all of us. It certainly can't hurt! Now if AF would stop being a you know what then that'd be great. I'm always here for you, Chickin <3

  3. <3 you chickin!! I'm really happy you made an appt to talk to someone, I really think that's a huge step and I'm proud of you. I hope they're a good fit for you and can help you deal with this difficult journey we're on. I hope you know I'm here for you, whether it's a shoulder to lean on or a random gif to make you laugh, I got your back! <3