Sorry about that folks.
Overall I think I do a pretty good job dealing with IF and have been relatively even-keeled but every now and then it gets to me (as evidenced by the last mess of a post). Sometimes I feel like I have to let the emotions take over or I will just explode. That was Monday.
Hubby was wonderful and talked me down off the ledge the other night but I still had a tough IF day yesterday. I kept crying at the drop of a hat and scaring the dog (even had to choke back tears as I talked with the nurse at my RE's office about next steps - that was embarrassing), but I'm doing better today.
So the plan is the same for this cycle: Currently waiting for bloodwork results then more Provera to force a period. Clomid CD 5-9 (we're upping to 150mg this month) + Trigger (if I ever get that far) and TI. My RE said that 150mg would be the limit - he doesn't want to go up to 200mg even though I know other Drs will. That's okay with me. I'm a little afraid of the side effects with 150mg as it is. With my crazy hot flashes I'm probably going to constantly look like I just went running.