Hubby is so positive about all of this that it really annoys me sometimes. (Okay, most of the time.)
I get why he's doing it, and we talked about it: He feels like it's his job to be the cheerleader. I'm the one taking all the meds, dealing with s/e, going to appts, getting u/s, getting b/w... so his job is to make a "deposit" when he needs to and to be the positive one when I can't be.
It's sweet of him to feel this way since he's doing this to support me. He's a good husband. Maybe I'm just being a bitch. I think his positivity annoys me because I feel like it's unrealistic and if there's one thing I'm sick of, it's false hope.
Common convo in our house:
Me: No response again this cycle honey. I'm not gonna ovulate so I need to take more Provera to start a new cycle :-(
Him: Sorry chicken. But that's okay - next cycle will be it!
Me: We'll see.
Him: It WILL be.
...Pause while I try not to overreact due to crazy-making meds...
Me: You don't know that.
Him: Sure I do!
Me: NO, you don't.
Him: Babe, it's gonna happen for us. Eventually something is gonna work.
Me: You don't KNOW that! We can hope but we can't know for sure.
And round and round we go.
Maybe I'm too negative, I don't know. I get why he's trying to be positive but I don't always need the positivity! Sometimes I just need to feel like he truly understands what we're going through and what our chances of conceiving actually are so that I feel like I have a partner in this and not just someone placating me. Maybe that's exactly what I should say to him the next time this comes up.
At the same time, I don't want to bring him down. I recognize that IF is a problem for him too - my body not working properly is keeping HIM from having a baby too. He has his own feelings to deal with in addition to trying to figure out how to handle me during this emotional rollercoaster. If the positivity is helping him get through it all maybe a better plan is for me to just keep my mouth shut and let him be positive. Maybe I'm being selfish here.
Anyone else go through something similar? Any words of wisdom or perspective you could share?