The nail in the coffin for me was just as I was starting to get a cold since, in community acupuncture [see this old blog post if you want more detail], if you have any kind of little tickle in your throat it is sort of like a mild form of torture since there is NOTHING you can do about it. You can't sit up to get a good cough out, and you try like hell to just keep swallowing and trying to ignore it so you don't disturb people by coughing or clearing your throat. The last time I went I had a coughing fit which was complete TORTURE. I kept trying not to cough but realized there was no way around it so I tried to do it as quietly as possible with my mouth closed. It didn't work. I started sweating, could feel my face getting bright red, and was worried my head was going to explode. Once I realized whatever I was doing wasn't going to cut it and I had to actually COUGH, I couldn't even bring my hand up to cover my mouth and had to just lay there like I had invisible straps on and just cough into the air with my mouth open. Gross. When that didn't even work I began to panic internally and got concerned that I was going to start thrashing about against my will. Thankfully, the acupuncturist came back into the room right then, made a beeline for me and mercifully popped a cough drop into my mouth. Sweet relief (even though it was icky menthol). I haven't been back since.
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RE appt this Thursday! I should be getting more Provera to start a new cycle (currently on CD50) and then likely the first round of Clomid. Wish me luck!