Friday, June 27, 2014

Fill-the-Void Friday, 6/27

Today marks 3 months since we said goodbye. It simultaneously feels like both a lifetime ago and like it was yesterday.  In the weeks after our loss, every hour ticked by so slowly that I didn't think we would ever put time between us and that moment of despair. And now here we are, already a quarter of a year later.  I expect I will always dislike the 27th of each month but:

Or, I'm reaaaally trying to anyway :-)

So here we go with this week's positives:
  • This morning after an especially intense Zumba class, I went home and dove straight into the pool for a cool down. It was heavenly! I think I shall do that more often.
  • A while ago I had to hide all the automatic Facebook status updates from everyone I know with babies because I couldn't handle the constant barrage of baby baby baby.  As a replacement, this week I "liked" a page that is full of pictures of the same kind of dog I have. Now when I log into FB I am bombarded with pictures of adorable furry puppies instead of things that make me sad.
  • I found a new show I like called "The Profit". It's about some rich dude who finds small businesses that are struggling, invests in them and then turns them around to make them profitable!  It's kind of awesome and the show makes you really pull for the business owners. (PS: I would love to own a business someday, I just need to figure out what that might be...)  Anywho, I found that there's a whole season of the show On Demand so I've been watching some of that to keep me distracted when I'm having tough evenings.
  • I'm looking forward to a beach day on Sunday! 
  • And the big one: On Wednesday morning as I was standing in front of the mirror doing my makeup I found my mind wandering to my RE's office and I realized I was having good thoughts about it. I was actually having pleasant thoughts about going back which proves to me that I am moving towards a place of readiness with TTC and IF treatments again. That's pretty incredible.
 

9 comments:

  1. The milestones are always so hard. I used to feel the same way every time the 10th of the month rolled around. Slowly, I am starting to dread the day less and embrace it in order to celebrate my boys. I hope someday, the 27th will get easier for you as well. Also, have you ever seen Shark Tank??? My husband and I just started watching and its kind of like the same concept - small companies looking for investors. It's pretty good!

    I am so glad to read that you feel more ready about TTC again. That is a huge step. I don't think I ever fully got to that place (I even threatened to quit once I had my first PIO shot), but I know the feeling you are talking about - it's the prospect that possibilities lay just around the corner. I hope that you are not on the TTC wagon for long and we hear about a rainbow baby soon!

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    1. You always help me so much with your comments. Thank you. I hope you know how much I appreciate it.
      And yes, we love Shark Tank! The guy on the Profit actually makes me think a bit of Mr Wonderful because he is a shrewd businessman but he has a better demeanor so people trust him more, haha!

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  2. I like that quote. I'm glad that you had a good week. The FB puppy thing was a good idea - puppies always help! I'm also glad that you're feeling good about moving forward. I want you to know that I will be here to cheer you on along the way. You're always in my thoughts and prayers <3

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  3. That IS incredible!! I'm sending you love always, my dear <3

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  4. What has helped me on the milestone days is to plan something fun to do that day ahead of time. It doesn't matter what it is, but it has to be fun for me and not something that I do all the time so that it's special. We have gone to the botanic garden, the zoo, a museum, volunteered packing meals for starving kids around the world, and the next one coming up we are planning on going to Legoland.

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    1. Great idea thanks Amanda! I think I will definitely plan something for Petey's EDD coming up.

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  5. I have to say I'm quite enjoying the puppy things you are sharing on FB now!! The one the other day that was a video of sleepy animals with fun facts about them was awesome - I had no idea dogs had no sense of time!

    You are so amazing. I think about you every day and send you good vibes. <3

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  6. Yay puppies! What kind of dog do you have?

    So happy that the RE is bringing good thoughts your way!

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