Saturday, June 21, 2014

Back on the TTC bandwagon

Well, I think I'm officially in a 2WW. My chart is all messed up because I haven't been consistently temping/POAS but my temp seems to be rising a bit and is in the same range it was the only other time I ovulated. If I did actually O we managed to hit the fertile window once so... there's that. But honestly, I have no hope that this will lead to some miracle BFP so yesterday I decided to call the RE's office to start putting the wheels in motion for our FET.  It looks like I've made up my mind that we are now officially back on the TTC bandwagon. Here are my next steps:
  • Contact hospital to have all notes from D&E faxed to RE
  • Office visit with RE on July 3rd
  • Day 3 baseline B/W
  • Hysteroscopy
  • BCPs until all insurance paperwork goes through
  • Then stop BCPs, get AF, start estrogen
  • Day 4 B/W to ensure I'm on the correct dosage
  • Day 14 lining check and schedule the transfer

I'm actually glad I called now and did not wait longer since at this point the FET still won't be until August. I think I'll have plenty of time between now and then to wrap my head around everything.

Making the call was a little tough. I found myself laying on the couch yesterday feeling miserable about the sad dark expanse of nothingness that is stretched out before me and wishing there was something I could do about it. Then I realized; there IS something I can do! So I got up, marched over to the phone and made the call before thinking twice.  I ended up talking with my favorite nurse and of course she was so sweet and so sad for us when I told her what happened so I got a little emotional.  It's not going to be fun to have to have those conversations with the nurses and my RE but I guess it has to happen eventually.

I feel...pretty good. I feel some sadness that we're moving on but it's also nice to have a plan again and something to look forward to.


  1. ((Hugs)) Chickin. You are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for. I can't imagine how scary this must be for you. But remember, moving forward does not mean that you're forgetting about Petey, you are carrying him/her forward with you. I know that Petey loves you and would want you to be happy and to keep going on with your life. Sending you lots of love and hugs <3

  2. So glad to hear you are proceeding with tcc! I know it will be stressful and emotional but I pray that it will be worth it and you will get to bring home a bundle of baby soon.

  3. Chickie, I am excited that you are moving forward with TTC and have something to look forward to!

  4. GL to you on your FET!! The first time back at the RE's office after losing Jack was very difficult but the 2nd and 3rd times weren't as bad hope your upcoming appts. go great! I recently had a hysteroscopy if you have any questions (not sure if you had one before).

    1. Thanks Kate! Yes, I have had a hysteroscopy before so I know what to expect!

  5. Sometimes having a plan makes me feel better about things too. I admire you so very much Chickin. Sending you tons of love.

  6. I bow down to you for your act of bravery. Like Packer said above, this is the greatest honor you can give to Petey Nugget. S/he will forever be loved, and I PRAY that s/he will pull some strings up above to make this happen. I love you <3

  7. I'm so glad that you're feeling good about moving forward with TTC again. Having a plan is always good - it gives you something to look forward too. I hope that everything goes well as you go through this process. I am and always will be thinking of you and hoping for the best <3

  8. I am glad to hear you made a decision to move forward and get the ball rolling for your FET :) Sending lots of love your way!

  9. Just wanted to send you lots of love! I am always amazed by how strong and awesome you are! Lots of love and ((hugs)).