I have had a headache since FRIDAY. It will not go away in spite of all the Tylenol, naps, soothing baths and cold compresses. I want to bash my head against the wall. Or better yet, reenact the scene from Liar,Liar where Jim Carrey repeatedly smashes the toilet seat down on his head; "I'm kickin' my asssss!". (Wow, I'm big on referencing semi-popular '90s movies lately.)
It lessens a bit here and there which makes it just bearable, but then other times it's so bad I almost vomit, can't stop crying, and have no idea how I'm going to do this for the next week+ until it's time to trigger. It's gotta be from a combo of the Lupron and Gonal-F (today is Day 4 of stims). It's like my body reached it's limit of Lupron and started sending caution signals up to my brain in the form of waves of headaches but instead of listening to it and stopping those meds, I just added on a new med that also gives me headaches! Awesome.
I really hope that although I'm having these bad side effects right now, that my body will get used to being pumped full of these meds and will start adjusting itself accordingly. If this doesn't stop soon I will lose my freakin mind. Overall, I just really really really (really really REALLY) hope that all of this will be worth it in the end.
Thankfully, I am feeling slightly better today than I was yesterday at this time. FX that's a trend. Also, the weird feeling I was talking about the other day from the Gonal-F has gone away too. That one was like a pressure of some sort around my abdomen and back - I still can't describe it. It was sort of pressure, cramping, pulling, tightness, aches, fullness...but also none of those things at the same time. Impossible for me to explain. I was concerned that it might be the beginning of OHSS (especially since I was already going into stims with 18 follies) but I'm no longer worried and am relieved it went away. Now I just need to get rid of this motherf@#$%in headache!!!
Other random updates:
Hubs got his repeat SA results back last week and they were fine! Great counts, motility was good again and the morphology was just fine (that was the one we were waiting to hear about). We weren't really concerned but it's still a relief to have the numbers.
Also, I did hear back from all but one of the friends I told about IVF. The ones I heard from were great and supportive and I'm happy I shared. The one outlier is a girl who has a history of not exactly being supportive when friends are going through hard times (understatement!) so I shouldn't be surprised. (Example: While a mutual friend was going through chemotherapy, not only did this friend not check in on her/offer to drive her to appts/help in any little way even though she lived LITERALLY down the street from her, but she actually asked her to cat sit for her during that time! That still blows my mind. So yeah, not so supportive.) I will not be bothering to include her on any additional update emails or anything and I would be shocked if she asked about any of it. Ah well.
In the meantime, I'm just going to deal with this and repeat the following as my mantra (only it's: Just keep stimming, just keep stimming...)