Okay, so really it's more like 35-40 to go... but, I gave myself my first Lupron shot this morning! That means we're finally getting moving and I am officially in an IVF cycle! That makes me happy.
It's funny how apprehensive I was about IVF a few months ago and how now, not only am I completely used to the idea/good with it, I'm actually excited about it! Besides that sole (unexpected) O a few months ago that resulted in a BFN, this will be our first REAL shot at getting pregnant in a year and half trying. My fingers are gonna be crossed for the entire next month!
I already have a bruise on my stomach from the shot this morning, and the one from the practice shot last Thurs is still there. At this rate, I'm going to be completely black and blue for the next month. Over the weekend I did go out and buy myself some new pairs of nice work pants that are a little looser though since the waistlines of all my pants fall right on the bruises when I sit down and I expect to also be bloated from the meds. Hopefully this month will go by quickly and it won't be much of an issue.
In other news, I found a new hobby: cross-stitching. CiCi turned me on to it and now I love it because I find it both relaxing and strangely fulfilling. And
maybe it's silly and/or presumptuous of me, but I ordered this baby pattern online and
should be getting it any day. Now that I've started my IVF cycle, my plan is to work on it as a little project to keep me calm & relaxed,
and to keep my eyes on the prize through all of this. Hopefully hopefully
hopefully, at the end of the month I will actually have a reason to use this 9 months later! If not though, my hope is that I WILL use it someday.
In all this time, I have avoided buying ANYTHING baby-related out of fear of bad juju so I found it interesting that the moment I saw this, I knew it was exactly what I wanted to work on and bought it without a second thought. TTC has been a long road filled with almost constant disappointment for me, but the fact that I had no qualms about this purchase/project tells me that I must finally have some real hope inside me that things will turn out alright in the end.
I'm so glad this IVF cycle has finally begun and I can't wait to start working on this little project :-)