Friday, October 31, 2014

16 week check-in

I have now reached 16 weeks which means the anatomy scan is one week away!  Please oh please oh please let it bring us good news....

We'll also be finding out next week if this little baby is a girl or a boy.  As long as the baby is healthy I will be happy either way but I'd be lying if I said it wouldn't mess me up in the head a little if we find out it's a boy.  Only because I have convinced myself that Petey was a boy (though we elected NOT to find out for sure) and since my pregnancy symptoms and "cravings" (or lack there-of) have been SO different with this pregnancy it leads me to believe that I'm currently carrying the opposite sex. Therefore, if this baby is a boy it will make me question what I've felt in my heart about Petey all this time. ::sigh::  We shall see.

It's funny to me to think back about how I felt about the upcoming anatomy scan when I was pregnant the first time. I had a countdown going a month out and was SO EXCITED for the day to finally come so we could find out the sex! The fact that the whole purpose of the A/S is to make sure the baby is growing properly and is healthy really didn't even enter my mind; of course my baby was perfect!  This time I've had a countdown going again but for a whooole different reason.  Now finding out the sex is the afterthought and this last month has just been filled with anxiety for us.  But it's finally less than a week away and I'm just about counting the hours at this point.

I'm feeling pretty good physically, nothing major to note.  My belly is definitely growing. It's like once I hit 2nd tri it triggered a switch and now I'm ballooning. At 16 weeks I look similar to how I did at 20w with Petey. I still have not gained any weight yet though.

I had my routine prenatal with a high risk OB last Tuesday. Everything went well and the doppler worked this time, thank God. Baby's heart is still beating away at 150ish bpm and the doctor told me that "the size of [my] uterus is impressive". I must admit I feel a funny sense of pride about that for some reason. (Like I have any control over it...)

This was the first time I had met that doctor. It was SO different from seeing my midwife.  She is all touchy-feely, always wanting to talk about everything and offering all kinds of information and hugs and reassurance... Whereas he was the absolute stereotype of a cold, unfeeling doctor with absolutely no bedside manner.  He answered each of my questions in monotone, offering no additional information if I did not specifically ask for it, and gave no reassurance about anything. Example:
Me: Do you have the results of the urine sample I gave during my last appt?
Doc: Yes, it's in your file.
Me: Good. They're not posted on the online patient portal so can you tell me if everything came back ok?
Doc: You tested positive for Group B Strep. ::Goes back to what he was doing::
Me: And that means what exactly...?
Doc: It means you carry a bacterial infection in your body that could be harmful to the baby if it is passed to him during delivery.  ::Goes back to what he was doing::
Me: Ooookay, so what is going to be done to make sure it's not passed?
Doc: You'll get an antibiotic via IV during labor. 
-End of convo-
The fact that I had to pull the info out of him annoyed me a little (and of course I went home a googled GBS and I see it's pretty common - about 25% of women have it - and doesn't seem to be a big deal) but honestly? His complete lack of bedside manner really didn't bother me too much.  I much prefer my midwife's approach but I'm not really looking for reassurance and hand-holding right now, I am just going through the necessary motions like a robot until I can get to the anatomy scan and confirm that everything is okay. My advice to anyone who is newly pregnant though, is to look into a midwife vs. a physician if you have the option. When you're newly PG you have no f-ing clue what you are doing so it's helpful to have someone who actually wants to tell you things.

Finally, I wanted to end on the best moment of the week! 
I received an awesome present in the mail this week from a very sweet and thoughtful woman (Erin K) in my SAIF FB group! She told me she was out shopping and saw this, thought of me and just had to get it for my little rainbow :-)  I am just bowled over by that. When we lost Petey I hadn't been a part of the SAIF group for very long at all but still the amount of support and love I received was just incredible. Now, even though I'm PG I'll admit that it's still been hard for me sometimes to see babies (especially recently since I sort of feel like I'm in limbo) and so I'm currently not very active in the group. I recognize Erin of course, and would know a picture of her and her adorable boys anywhere but we've never actually had a one-on-one conversation. So I am just so humbled and appreciative that she would not only think of me but actually buy something (awesome) for my baby :'-)  There are a lot of good people in the world.
Check out my baby's first Patriots "jersey"!!


And look at that - you even get a bump pic out of the deal! :-)


  1. FX for a great anatomy scan! I also cannot wait to hear what the gender is. That picture and that jersey is simply adorable! And ew to that doctor. Sometimes great doctors had the worst bedside manner and are so matter-of-fact, but still... yeesh. It took me awhile to find a doctor who was NOT like that, though. They are few and far between. I'll be thnking of you as your A/S comes up... I know how anxious and nervous you must be feeling all too well. Hugs and love, as always.

  2. FWIW, my pregnancy with Jack and this baby have been completely different so I've come to just think that symptoms=gender is a myth, LOL. I'll be thinking of you this week, our A/S is this week too, so I can imagine that each day brings a little more anxiety. Hoping the day comes and goes quickly and baby is doing great. I love that little jersey its so cute....and the photobomb bump too :)

    1. Kate, that is so reassuring! Thank you for saying that your pregnancies have been different with your two boys. I hope that will make things easier for me if we find out on Thurs that this is a boy!

  3. hoping everything goes perfect at the anatomy scan. be sure to update us as soon as you know something!! hugs!!

  4. FX for a great anatomy scan!! I am so hopeful that everything will go perfect for you! <3

  5. Yay go Pats! Praying for a great AS this week! Hugs!

  6. I'm focusing all of my good thoughts and prayers on you guys this week. I hope that everything looks perfect on Thursday <3 <3

  7. Sending all my love and prayers and positive juju for great results on Thurs!!! And I can't wait to find out what your little Chickin nugget is!!! Love you, lady!! <3

  8. love love the jersey! (especially after they stomped all over the Broncos yesterday!) T&Ps for a great A/S later this week!!

  9. Thinking of you and baby this week - hope hope hoping for excellent news at your A/S!

  10. Thinking about you heading in to tomorrow girl! Sending big thoughts and prayers your way!

  11. Loveeeee the Pats jersey!!!!! Reading these backwards, so glad the A/S went well!!!!!!