Oh right, what I'm doing.
I've been pregnant for like, a second, and I've already gained back 3 of the pounds I worked so hard to lose over the last month. That makes me feel A) sad and B) selfish because I feel like that shouldn't even be entering my mind. I should just be happy to be pregnant. Period.
The hungry mungries have started already though. I have to eat every 3 hours or I get nauseous. Unfortunately I am not liking much food lately. Watermelon's pretty good most of the time. So are Andes Mints. Aaaand that's about it. Yup, well-balanced meals over here at Chickin's house!
I am also back to my favorite thing of being awake from 3-5am trying not to puke. I am SO hoping my "morning" sickness isn't going to be as bad as last time but it's not looking good so far. I've distributed the puke buckets around my house and one in my car already in preparation.
This all feels like deja vu (only with omnipresent sadness and a healthy dose of fear). I hope that will let up as time goes by.
I feel like the past couple weeks have moved in slow motion. How am I still not even 6weeks PG yet? I'm looking forward to my U/S next Tuesday. Hopefully there's only one baby in there and s/he's looking good. I'm hoping to hear the heartbeat at that point. Maybe it will make it feel more real.
I'm going out on a limb and predicting that this baby is going to be a girl. I don't know why. Before we even got PG I thought the next one would be a girl. Something with rainbows feeling girly and also the fact that I thought Petey was a boy. A girl just feels right this time. Also, I am craving sugary things so far and when PG with Petey I had no interest whatsoever in sweets.
Hey, 50/50 shot!
If it makes you feel any better, I've gained four pounds. In two days. Oh yes.... the rest of this pregnancy is going to be interesting. Fat baby needs to chill out on the food.
ReplyDeleteIf mother's intuition says this is a girl, then it's probably a girl! Looking forward to hearing about your first ultrasound next week!
Hungry mungries cracked me right up! I happily gorged my way through first tri without a puking incident but the scale suffered. It's never easy to see the numbers creep up, even when it's for a good cause.
ReplyDeleteI can't wait to hear about your u/s next week!! One week to go!
I'm always praying for you, Chickin! Good luck on Tuesday!!
ReplyDeleteI am truely moved by your blog. I tfmr in May this year with baby #no 1 at 16wks due to a ntd. I stumbled upon your blog by accident this morning after seeking inspiration for my own blog I am thinking of starting. I have read your story fighting back the tears as I know exactly how you felt every step of the way through your journey sice tfmr. I am wishing you a quiet pregnancy and a healthy baby.
ReplyDeletePrayers from London, from a 35 year old ttc #2 3 months after I said goodbye to my angel xxx
Thank you for reading and commenting! I am so sorry for your loss and your pain. Please feel free to follow along and link your blog too if you decide to create one! Good luck to you with TTC #2. ((Hugs))
DeleteI think it is SO hard to go from the mindset of losing weight to starting to see the scale go up. I had major struggles with it. I think in my head I knew it was because I was pregnant and that was a good thing, but it is just an emotional adjustment. I don't have any advice other than to say I totally understand. Try not to let it get you down. (trust me, easier said than done.)
ReplyDeleteKeeping everything crossed for your u/s next Tuesday! Lots of love to you!
Congrats on the baby and try to focus on making healthy changes to your diet to get started then you can go for moderate walks just to keep you and the baby healthy. I believe you will do fine with the baby and I am confident you will get your body back after pregnancy as long as you honestly work at it. Good luck!
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ReplyDeleteGood luck.I enjoyed the post.