Email diarrhea

As I'm sure you are aware from my ample bitching lately, I've been feeling pretty crappy over the past week. Luckily, I normally work from home 3 out of 5 days a week and only go into the office twice so if I don't feel well I can still work-- in my PJs :-) But I actually haven't gone in at all this week.  That's not a huge deal because I have a lot of flexibility but I've felt like a slacker lately. That, coupled with feeling like a big pile of poo, somehow convinced me that it was a good idea to email my supervisor and a coworker the other day about what I'm going through and why I'm slightly MIA lately and will likely need to take some sick time. I seem to have email diarrhea (copyright!) lately about IVF. I just can't hold it in!  (haha, gross)

Seriously though, I should stop telling people.  In this case I convinced myself it was necessary since it has sorta been affecting my work. However, I probably could have just gotten away with saying I was sick/feeling under the weather and no one would have asked any questions... Maybe it's just that it feels weird to be going through something so big without important people in my life knowing about it! I am normally a very open person and it's strange to be so secretive about such a large part of my life right now.

My coworker's reaction could not have been better though so I don't regret emailing. I've copied her response here because it makes me feel so lucky to have supportive people like her in my life and I don't want to forget that:

I am thinking about you and love you. Focus only on yourself and do what you need to do to take care of yourself. Work is so unimportant compared to what you are doing now and you need to devote all your physical and emotional strength to this. Tell me what I can do to help.

xo

Is that a perfect response or what? I cried of course. I love her. This is the same coworker I told many months ago about our trouble TTC and she shared with me that she suffered 15 miscarriages (15!!!) while conceiving her 3 children.   Talk about putting things in perspective!

Anyway, I think I'm done with the email diarrhea now. I counted today and there are 18 people in Hubs & my life that know about our IVF cycle. That's way more than I thought.  It's good to have support and people rooting for us, but it also means there will be lots of questions come transfer/beta time on whether or not we're pregnant. If it doesn't work that's going to be a lot of bad news to relay over and over again. And if it does work (please please please!) it's going to be a lot of avoidance/elusiveness on our part since we won't want to announce so early. If that's the only problem we have though, I'll take it!