Some good news!

Correction: GREAT news.

We got the chromosome testing results back from little Petey and everything was normal! 
PHEEEEEEEEEW. 

This means that Petey's issues were just a fluke and we do not have an increased risk of something like this happening again with a future pregnancy. If they had found a chromosome issue it was likely that any embryo formed with my egg and Hubs' sperm (including our three precious frosties) would have severe issues.  At that point, both Hubs and I would have had to go through testing to figure out which one of us is the carrier and then get either donor eggs or sperm (or embryos). 
Or start looking into adoption.

Instead, all I will have to do is take 4mg folic acid daily (10 times the normal amount) with any future pregnancy since Petey's issues stemmed from a neural tube defect, and go in for a few extra monitoring appointments. DONE!  I will go in every week and pour spinach down my gullet around the clock if it will increase our chances for a healthy take-home baby someday!

When the doctor gave us the results Hubs and I just sat there in shock for a moment staring at each other. I think we've gotten so used to getting horrible news that it took a sec for it to truly sink in that that was it; the last piece of information we were waiting for, and it was actually good.  Eventually we breathed again and were both able to smile as we realized that this was just really really horrible shit luck and we might still be able to have a take-home baby someday.  RELIEF.  I immediately felt like an invisible heavy wet blanket had been lifted off of me. I felt like I could breathe and see the sunshine and see a future.  

Don't get me wrong, I am still so sad this happened to our little Petey and always will be. I will forever miss him/her but I am also so relieved that this news means it will hopefully never happen again to another little love.  I am grateful at least for that.

Annnnnnd... ::EXHALE::